I Heart Thailand

As the clock tick, I remember that I only have 4 hours till my flight departs to S. Korea... AHHH!!! Goodbyes again... I came to Thailand thinking that i'll be leaving without feeling anything because i wasn't going to have a good time. Truth is, I had an AMAZING time! MANG... I thought I was going to have one more day so I can visit the palace. It was a hard decision for me to actually come to Thailand by myself. Something that I thought i'll never do. And i'm glad I did it. Thailand and Laos has taught me numerous lessons in life; good ones and bad ones. Ne was a great tour guide, though she was good at pulling my leg. I'll really miss her. She's like a big sister to me. I don't know when I'll see her again. But there's the internet right?? Oh gosh, the clock is ticking I have to pick up my junk! Get ready South Korea!! Here I come!! Later Gator! <3

P.S. Life Lesson #7: Explore the unknowns.

Happy Post

Sorry I haven't blog for a long while. I was in the wonderland of Laos where internet is still slow on development. I'm back in Thailand now. Staying at a hotel in room #1, on the very top level of the building that is over looking the bus station. Anywho, there's so much that I want to blog about but that will take days to type and I really don't have the time to. And it's 3 in the morning here so i'm kind of tired... Therefore, I'll let some of my pictures do the talking for this blog.

This is what happened during the first few days I landed in laos. Traditional hmong string tying ceremony that my dad's brother's son did for me while I was visiting. I had no clue I had relatives in Laos... It's nice when people know who you are. I met so many people I can't remember their names. The village was like a camp ground, maybe worse. What do I mean when I say camp ground? Eh, see for yourself.

I also spent a few nights at my brother's wife's older sister's house. Her house was.. dazzling. It was HUGE. They have a small frig with nothing but CHOCOLATE! Yes, I basically slept next to it. Went site seeing and did some tourist stuff. SHOPPING is always on my list of things to do.

I also changed my hair... well it got longer too.

WOW. I really didn't even cover anything. BUT I'm in a radiant mood ^^. Just finished chatting and video/voice calling some friends. It's nice to hear something familiar in a world full of unknowns. Well a few close friends told me my blog is depressing. I'm aware of that LOL. It's just I post late at night, and it's at the end of the day where my character is not at it's happiest point. So I'm hoping this is a "happy post" hit. I am still in search of some more tunes for my LABpod at the moment. That's all folks, my eyelids won't hold any longer. oh yes~Happy Valentines Day!

P.S. Life Lesson #6: Never try to bargain in English. Especially when you're in a country that speaks zero English.
<3

I Forgot Roses Have Thorns

It’s funny. Really, it is. You know when things upset you so much, makes you so antagonized you don’t know how to react to it but laugh? This is not a fine frenzy. I’m trying my best to stay calm. But I’m about to blow. It’s really a put down. I’m disappointed. This is a wound that cannot be healed. I knew it already, but I guess I just wanted to see it for myself.

So yeah, it’s funny. Funny that I forgot the purest of heart can become bitter. Best friends can betray each other. Mothers can give their child up. Vows can be betrayed. Whatever happened to “til death do us part?” I’m just disappointed. I don’t know which party to feel more sorry for. I don’t feel like writing more. This will past. But it’ll never be forgotten. Or forgiven.

P.S. Life Lesson #5: Seeing IS believing

Live, Love, Lol?

Living it out.

Things are becoming more interesting here as I’m finally conforming to the Thai way of life. Going out everyday and have people speak to me in Thai as I stare at them with a smile and blink back. It’s becoming hilarious as more and more people are doing that to me. I guess I look Thai? Is that a good or bad thing?? Hmm, as long as I’m blending in, there are some good possibilities in that. No discriminations. I also found out that the people here treat me better when they find out that I speak fluent English. I should do that more often. BUT, I also found out that I get ripped off when they know that I speak English and is from the U.S. What to do… What to do….. Be Paxia? I think yes.

Time for love

I’m not searching for any kind of “love” out here. I get scared when people ask for my number. Actually, I gave it away. I hope he calls so my mom can pick up and give him a 5 hour lecture. I won’t be home for 6 months dear LOL. Another terrifying situation; this old guy wanted me to marry his son. The horrifying part is that he was dead serious about it. I hope I never run into him again cause he told me he was going to show me a picture of his son. Creepy…. Besides, I have other stuff to worry about, like how to build a sandcastle that will survive the wind and waves. I’ve never really spent a lot of time on these mushy stuff. Not really my style to say the least. And when I do, things get jumbled up and tangled. Swaying a heart that’s never been can be close to impossible, yeah?

When you LOL it cures the heart.

I also gave up rice today. LOL. I told the girl I’m with that I’m only going to eat bread and drink coffee. Which I did, and will continue doing till I feel like eating rice again. I might throw in a curve ball of a cup of ramen noodle in there too. I’m kind of afraid of eating street vendor food. I tried it today though, and it was easy and cheap. And there were no rice involved. Technology is not being nice to me at the moment. Hopefully we can become best friends again. I get laughed at for doing things differently but the funny thing is I laugh with them. Why am I the dork here? Eh - I found out the sun is brighter when you LOL from time to time. Try it.

P.S. Shorts and T-shirts. I love the simplicity.

<3

Got Rice?

Rice, rice, rice, rice. Rice!!!! Everything I eat consist of rice! Rice for breakfast, rice for lunch, rice for dinner! Rice cake?! There's even rice snacks and rice drinks!!! AHHHH!!! Not only that, but everywhere I turn there are rice fields! I'm seriously going to go crazy if I see another grain of rice. They grow rice here like there's no tomorrow. It's crazy, they're crazy. I've never consume so much rice in my life! My eyeballs are going to turn into rice. Hell. I might turn into a rice ball myself. I need some ice cream mochi in my life. -sigh- -SIGH- (This thai guy next to me is jammin' to some Katy Perry stuff LOLOL) I'm at an internet shop right now, munching on....rice bars....Oh the joy.
 *Side note - They answer the phone with "hel-lllooooOO" PUAHAHA

Well, things are turning around. It's turning around slowly, but for the better. Adjusting myself to a new foundation. Well, I spent the morning at the hospital. Switched hotels. Went out. And is still out lol. I haven't seen my father yet. I was hoping to run into him sooner. Maybe he's trying to avoid me, but whatever. I find myself hating him at times when I think too much. Thinking too much can turn the heart bitter. At least my brain tells me so. hmm...This is probably what happens when time gives you too much of itself. My brain is in the condition of fried rice. I think it's time to crossover to Laos. Please have sushi rolls there!

P.S. Life Lesson #4: NEVER eat snacks on the bed, unless you want to wake up to a gazillion ant hills. <3

The Lies Wears Off

Hmmm… What to say? First day of February?? Today was exhausting. I’m beat. Really didn’t do anything much. Yet, I’m not going to write much. I spent another day at the hospital, and tomorrow will be a repeat of it. I swear, this kid is sick and her mother needs to take better care of her. I found out she never saw her father, and doesn’t even call her mother “mom”. I don’t think that’s healthy. But whatever, they’re okay with it so I have no place to say anything. I’ll leave it at that.

I spent most of my day waiting at the hospital and being mistaken that I’m Thai. Then we went SHOPPING. And let me tell ya. It was pretty intense shopping. A shirt for $3? HELL YEAH! But looking back at it now… that’s 3 meals for every shirt.. UGGGH!!! It’s okay. The only thing is I shopped till I didn’t have any more fingers to hold my bags. To be honest, I was at the shopping market from set up to take down. I didn’t leave till I was forced to. It was that bad. Can’t say I’m happy or not. But I sort of exploded. All my emotions from the previous week went straight into money spending. It was like a remedy for me, like a drug. However, now that I lay here typing, I feel as if the drug has worn off. I’m feeling the after affects of it all. During that period of time I kept telling myself everything is great! It’s awesome! Truth is, all lies wears off. I would go more into depth about this but I really don’t feel like it now. I can’t return these CLOTHES! There’s no receipt. –SIGH-

P.S. Life Lesson #3: Always carry tissue or napkins!

~Hearts, Hugs, & LOLs <3